I hate what you've become.

I tried sleeping today but, something kept bothering me.
I kept thinking about her which was really odd.
I was thinking about how everything about her was pretty chill.
Then I started to think about our whole relationship.
I know for a fact most of it was practically my fault.
But that's not the point right now.
It's just the way she is now is different.
I know that I don't know her very well
But, when I first met her she was one of the most chillest girls I've ever met.
But, I don't know actually...
I can't put my finger on it.
Something about her just bothers me.
I just don't feel like speaking to her.
I want to be her friend it's just that...
I don't know.
I hate how she brags about getting high nowadays.
The way she looks now just bothers me...
I hate what she's become.
But, I don't want my thoughts to speak out loud.
I just want to keep it to myself.
Maybe I still do have lingering feelings or something?
But, I don't know...
The fact of the matter is; she's not mine anymore.
I guess I'll let her be.

I just miss her...